#also first time hearing this song... it's good it's good i love it

[milomelts]

Bet On Me

Pairing: Jack Abbot x Reader (she/her/afab)

Word Count: 3.5k

Warnings: 18+, no y/n use, italics

Note: bear with me cuz i havent written in months but first pitt fic 😈 send me them requests im currently obsessed lmao

also lowkey if anything is incorrect pls tell me cuz i am the proof reader round these parts 😭

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Jack Abbot had never really been addicted to anything. Sure he had an affliction for cigarettes for a while, and on more than one occasion, sought out the high after an adrenaline rush, but these weren’t things he necessarily needed.

What he did need was the constant. He was addicted to the pattern, your rhythm, it was as if his day wouldn’t start until you had said those four words.

“Wanna make a bet?” you’d smirk, talking in a hushed tone for him and only him to hear. It was addicting. Every single day you’d find him at the start of his shift no matter where he was, those four words ringing in his ears like a sweet song when he tried to fall asleep. Wanna make a bet.

He always did.

“What’s it today,” his hazel eyes would find yours, scanning your face. He’d let them linger on your lips just slightly too long before snapping them back up to your eyes, only to find you flittering back and forth between his. Surely you hadn’t noticed but you were always too observant.

“I bet,” you would trail off, eyes scanning around central as you searched for your latest victim. Sometimes he would swear that you were bribing people into your side just so he would lose the bet. “We get an overdose patient in the first hour.”

Abbot scoffs, pushing off the counter the two of you had been leaning on, running a hand through his hair as he ruminated on the bet. Too easy, that happened most nights, he could counter with something more rare but it would be risky. He turns back to you about to respond but his breath catches in his throat. You were looking up at him, head resting on the counter, hair falling over your shoulder revealing your neck, and those sweet innocent eyes were following every movement his hand made through his hair. Your teeth teased at your bottom lip as you bit them, a habit he found you doing when you were lost in thought or concentration.

“Too easy,” he shakes his head, bring you both back to the present as you stand up straight once again frowning. “How about broken clavicle before 4am?”

You make a noise of dissatisfaction, ruminating over how likely it was someone would come in with a broken bone at all, let alone the clavicle. Then adding in the time factor, it adds to the risk and…

“I can pick something easier if-”

“No, no!” you interject, a small smile working its way on your face. You always did love a risk. “Sounds perfect.”

Perfect. God you were gonna ruin him.

“Well what do you wanna wager, Dr. Abbot?” This was his favourite part. The way you say his name, dragging out every letter, making it sound like its dripping with honey. He wanted to hear you say it over and over and over again.

“Anything.” It slips out before he can stop himself, god he must have been tired already.

“Oh?” You laugh, that beautiful sound ringing in his ears as your eyes shine bright at him. He didn’t deserve you, your innocence, your energy. “How about a drink and a massage, I don’t think you could afford losing anymore money this week and my back is killing me.”

His head is spinning at this point and he barely registers you holding out your hand for him to shake. That meant you wanted to go back to his place. Just the two of you, a drink, god fuck. Shake her hand idiot.

He did, probably for slightly too long. Before he can pull away, you lean in closer to his ear with one last tease.

“I hope you’re good with your hands, Dr. Abbot.”

Then you’re off, skipping your way across central to take over rounds for the day shift. For you he could be good, his hands could be good he means. Please god let someone’s clavicle break.

Its not long before you’re swept away doing work up after work up. Even during the night shift it seemed there was a constant flow of patients, especially since it was a friday, various college kids who were blackout drunk or elderly patients that just got checked on before bedtime. You had finally sat down for the first time in what felt like hours after finishing the initial workup on an allergic reaction, ordering a shot of epinephrine for a girl who had one bad anniversary dinner. You were adding to her chart when you felt someone slide up beside you, light clicks coming from their own ipad as they typed up paitent charts.

“So,” Dr. Ellis began, a shit-eating grin spreads across her face as you glance up at her. “You and Doctor Abbot? What’s going on there?”

You can’t help but laugh with her, “I don’t know what you’re talking about.” This wasnt the first time she had asked about your relationship, but you had insisted that despite how badly you wanted to see him at home in baggy grey sweats and messy curls, there was once again nothing going on. Definitely nothing at all.

“Right, so he’s just making heart eyes at you right now for fun?” She chided, beckoning you to look across the room with a tilt of her head.

You follow her motion across central and chills rake down your body as your eyes lock with Abbot’s. His hair was messy at this point, the way it always got around 2am with how often he tugged at it when he was stressed. God you wished it was you pulling at it instead. He tilts his head slightly, pulling your eyes back down to his and he smiles softly before tapping his watch and walking back to check on patients.

Instinctively you go to check the time, but Ellis beats you to it. “Nearly 4am, don’t tell me you guys have another bet going?”

“We always have a bet going,” you remind her, turning back to face her once again.

“In that case I hope you win,” she grins, returning both of your tablets to the main docking station and grabbing a new one for each of you. She passes you your tablet but pulls it back just before you can grab it, raising an eyebrow at you. “What did you wager?”

“Oh uhm,” You face flushes and you stand up, gingerly grabbing your tablet from her and shrugging as you rush back towards your patients. “Just the usual, money.”

“You know none of us believe that!!”

You face is flushed bright red as you check the vitals on your first bed. Stable BP, no blown pupils. Don’t look at your watch, dont do it. 3:48. Shit.

Next bed, paitent sleeping but stable vitals once again, still waiting for that head CT because of course they would be backed up at this time of night. Do not check the time. 3:52. Fuck.

By the time you’re at the third bed you can barely focus on checking charts and vitals, grumbling as you toss down your tablet at central and look towards the ambulance bay. 3:57.

You look around the room, eyes stopping when you catch Abbot staring at you once again. He glances down to his watch again, mirroring him you check yours one last time. 3:59. Your head whips up to find him, boots landing heavy on the ground as he stalks towards you interrupted by two medics bursting through the ambulance doors and you both rush towards them.

“37 year old female, car accident. Tenderness and pain coming from the upper chest, but stable vitals.” The medic rattles off as you and Abbot wheel the bed towards the first trauma bay.

Abbot’s hands press lightly over the patient’s neck and then down overtop their clavical where she’s winces in pain, groaning as he presses overtop the same spot again as you order pain meds. You start assisting with hooking up the various monitors, but your head snaps around when Abbot says your name.

“Looks like we have a broken clavicle,” he doesn’t want to smile, but can’t help the grin on his face when your eyes light up.

“Perfect,” you whisper out, catching a few strange glances from the other nurses in the room and you quickly reorient yourself. “I mean, let’s get her up for a scan!”

You nod to the other nurses as they take the bed out of the room, waiting for the doors to slide closed before you look up at Abbot again. You open your mouth to say something but your voice catches in your throat when you see the way he’s looking at you -like a predator about to catch its prey.

“What do you like to drink?” He voice is low and gravely, only for you to hear. His eyes drop down to your lips and back up, once, twice, and you can see the rise and fall of his chest quicken.

“Just, uhm, just whatever is fine.” You squeak out, heart racing as he takes another step closer to you. He could get used to seeing you shy, seeing you blushing underneath him as he-

As he focused on the present like his therapist recommended. Jesus get a grip man.

“Wine okay?” His fingers are almost touching yours, and you gasp when they accidentally graze against your arm.

“Mmhm,” Your lips are sealed tight together and for just a moment you think maybe this was all a dream. That you had actually hallucinated this whole thing and finally gone crazy from the lack of sleep.

Just as Abbot opens his mouth to say more the doors to the trauma bay slide open and the two of you shoot apart like repelling magnets as the cleaning worker wheels in their cart to mop the floor. Abbot is rushing out before you can get another word in and you awkwardly apologize to the worker before hazily finding your way through central back to your desk.

“Five minutes tell we’re off, but judging by the fact that all your paients charts are caught up, one might assume you have somewhere to be.” The teasing tone causes you to groan and drop your head against your desk as Ellis rolls her chair up beside yours.

“Yeah my bed,” you lie, refusing to pick up your head to look at her as her eyes burn holes in you.

“So what did you win?” She lightly pushes your shoulder causing you to look over at her and break out in a fit of giggles. “The nurses say you were a little too excited for that broken clavicle.”

“Always with the gossip train,” you mutter, letting your hands slide down your face. “Fine, I may or may not have won drinkswithAbbot.” You hurriedly mumble out the last part, standing up quickly as you pull your jacket off the back of your chair and sling it over your shoulder. You had to get out of there before you got embarrassed anymore by Ellis, or god forbid, another nurse overheard your conversations.

“Oh you are gonna get a lot more than just drinks-“

“Good morning and night to you too Dr. Ellis,” you cut her off, bending at the knee in a little curtsy, before making your way out to the parking lot ignoring her cheers as the door slams behind you.

You weren’t entirely sure where you were supposed to meet up with Abbot, but as soon as your feet hit the pavement of the parking lot his were walking in step right behind you. He hovers his hand lightly over your lower back and guides you to turn down the first street as you head towards his apartment a light banter about the various patients you had seen during the night fills the air comfortably as you finally make it to his building.

Unsurprisingly his apartment was neat, almost bare which is expected considering most of his time was spent at the hospital, but there was still a warmth of home. Various books where sprawled out on the coffee table by his couch, surrounded by even more bookcases containing various movies, records, and you guessed it even more books. Of course he had a dvd player and all his favourites sitting on a shelf by his TV, once again reminding you that he was nearly twice your age.

You hear some glasses clink together behind you and you turn around to find Abbot pouring some red wine in each before meeting you on the couch. He sits down beside you, your breath hitching as his thighs touch yours and you involuntarily lean closer into him as you take the glass.

“Cheers to your win,” his voice is soft, it’s so quiet compared to the authority he exudes in the ER. He probably would talk you through it. You choke on the wine and cough, the red liquid spilling out onto your shirt.

“Shit,” you cough out, settling the glass down on the table as Abbot does the same, his hand coming up to your shoulder to steady you as you catch your breath through the coughs. “I’m so sorry, that’s so embarrassing!”

“No, it’s okay,” His reassures, hands coming up to steady your waist as you get through the fit of coughs.

“I swear I know how to drink,” you laugh out, eyes darting down to his fingers playing with the end of your shirt.

“If you want I have spare clothes,” he offers, once again toying with the edge of your shirt. His fingers dance along the hem before they slowly glide along your bare skin, causing you to gasp at the cold feeling.

Your face is centimeters away from his and you can’t help but dart your eyes from his hands up to his eyes, then his lips which are stained a deep red from the wine. A surge of confidence bubbles up in you and before you can lose it you find your hand coming up to cup his cheek bringing his eyes to yours.

“Well, I won’t be needing a shirt for my massage, right Dr. Abbot?”

That pushed him over the edge, pulling you into a rough kiss, teething clashing against each other. Your hands moved their way up to his locks, intertwining with those damn curls you had been so desperate to mess up before. He pulls away from you, tugging your bottom lip lightly between his teeth causing you to moan and you could see the fire light in his eyes.

You move closer to him, settling on top of his lap with your legs on either side of him, as he finally pulls off your top and unclips your bra letting them fall to floor. His mouth is back on you, trailing kisses down your neck till he reaches your collar bone. You let out a whine he bites down, sucking and smoothing the area over with his tongue over and over causing you to moan and grind down on him.

When he finally pulls back his pupils are blown out, lips puffy and red, he looks absolutely wrecked from just kissing you and you’re sure you look the same. He nods his head down, following his gaze you find a dark purple bruise forming on your clavicle where he had just been focusing his attacks.

“Jack!” you scold, noticing the way his hips jerk up into yours as you say his name. He can’t help the smile that tugs at his lips from your reaction. He would mark your body over and over again, he wanted everyone to know you were his and his alone.

“Think it’s about time I fulfill the other part of that bet,” he’s quick to flip the two of you over causing you to gasp as you back hit the couch. Jack sinks to his knees in front of you, pulling off ur scrub bottoms and undies in one swoop, and positioning himself between your thighs.

Your hands are quick to find his salt and pepper hair as he kisses softly up your thigh till his nose was hitting right where you craved him. He licks a long stride up your slit and you whine, tossing your head back against the couch as he repeats the motion once more before kissing and nipping at your thighs again.

“Jack, please” you plea, just wanting him to give you anything. End the teasing and rail you over and over till you cried.

“Eyes on me baby,” He hummed, his hazel eyes cutting right through you as he finally returned his mouth to your cunt. It was an unspoken deal, the longer you held eye contact the more he would give you.

You watched his eyes scan your whole body, the way your back arched every time he added a finger, the way your brows would press together when he would brush against the right spots, he was always too damn observant. But god was he just drunk on you. He loved feeling your fingers tighten in his hair when he’d suck and lap at your clit and the way your eyes would close for just a moment before snapping back to his. He was addicted to this, to you.

By the time you were cumming he was wasted. The sweet sounds, the way your thighs were threatening to close around him, the blush coating your face threatening to drag down over your neck and chest. You were so beautiful, so perfect, and all for him.

“Jack,” your voice snapped his attention back to you, your eyes pricking with tears as he pulled away from your cunt, coming up to capture your lips with his. His hands fumbled with the hem of his shirt, breaking the kiss to toss it off, whilst your hands worked on untying his scrub pants and letting them fall to floor.

“You sure you want this?” Want him he means, everything that comes with him. If there was one other pattern that came with Jack Abbot other than an addiction to you, it was this. The feeling of burden.

“I want this,” your voice is hushed and you can see the way the statement softens his eyes, brows relaxing as he pulls you into another kiss, this one is less frantic, less rushed. A declaration of something neither of you wanted to label just yet, but a promise to each other.

He makes quick work of his boxers, spitting on his hand and pumping his length a few times before teasing your slit up and down, and finally pushing his full length into you. He lets out a deep groan, burying his face in the crook of your neck as you scratch along his back, wrapping your legs around him.

He reveled in the filthy noises you made as he began fucking in and out of your tight cunt, feeling your fingers dig into his back and pull at the curls on his neck. He was driving you insane, between the kisses and the lewd praises that streamed out of him like a memorized scripture.

“Such a good girl,” He’d repeat over and over, his good girl. “Your pretty hole is taking me so well.”

All you could do was whine out his name over and over, he was all you could think about. The pleasure he was giving you, the bruises he was decorating your collar with, the head of his dick kissing that sweet spot over and over. He held your hips down as he pounded into you, bringing one hand up to rub circles around your clit cause you to tighten around him, holding on to his biceps as you moan.

“Mm close, Jack” You could feel the way his arms tensed, dick twitching inside you signaling he was close too. He could cum just from hearing you say his name.

“Gonna cum for me?” He rasps out, practically out of breath when he takes in the sight of you. Pupils blown, hair sticking to your face, tears pricking at your eyes, and god, the way your pussy was taking his length so well, it was mesmerizing to watch. “Please, cum for me baby.”

Thats what sent you over the edge, the begging. He wanted every bit of you, would beg to have you, to please you. He continued fucking you through your high, finger slowing down on your clit till he was pulling out and painting your stomach white.

He falls to his knees in front of you, resting his head on your thigh as he looks up at you with a lazy grin, those beautiful hazel eyes finding yours. You watched as he caught his breath, eyes never leaving each other as you both came down, finally able to form coherent thoughts.

“Thank you,” you smile while reaching out a hand to card fingers through his messy hair. Of course you would say thank you after making him cum the hardest he ever has. Sweet, innocent you.

“Who said we were done yet?” He wasn’t letting you go that easy, not until the sun was setting again.

Maybe Robby could cover his shift tomorrow.

[scorpiossslut]

Sweetheart Syndrome— Rafe Cameron.

part two here.

Sweetheart Syndrome (n.)

A psychological phenomenon in which affection is used as a weapon - often characterized by one person's obsessive devotion masked as tenderness, leading the other to mistake control for love. Typically occurs in relationships where the lines between protection and possession become dangerously blurred.

pairing: bestfriend!rafe x reader

summary: Rafe and reader have always been inseparable - best friends since childhood, their bond seeming unbreakable. But when Rafe's affection for her morphs into something darker, he will stop at nothing to make her his. She is blissfully unaware of the darkness growing within him, finds herself caught between love and fear, unsure of where Rafe ends and she begins. As his manipulation tightens, she struggles to hold on to the person she once was.

Author's note: This is kind of based on the first fic ive written about Rafe Cameron. But like... in the way that it has similar themes. Also inspired by YOU. Anyway, enjoy xoxo💋

Warnings: possessive!rafe, borderline obsessive, crazy!rafe, violence, thoughts of murder, unprotected sex.

1. Unspoken Boundaries

"Some of the most dangerous people are the ones who pretend to be normal."

Song: "House of Balloons/Glass Table girls" - The Weeknd.

It started like every other summer before it. Salt on skin. Sand in shoes. Laughter echoing across the dunes.

The Pogues were causing a ruckus down at the Boneyard. The Kooks were throwing another party by the docks, where empty beer cans clinked against the dock wood and cigarettes lit up under the stars. Rafe Cameron stood on the edge of the crowd, drink in hand, head slightly tilted as he watched her.

Seventeen. Green-eyed. Tan-skinned from too many afternoons lying on the hood of his car, too many days falling asleep on his shoulder during movies they'd already seen a thousand times.

"Yo, Rafe," Kelce's voice broke into his thoughts. "You seriously gonna stand there all night and stare at her like a serial killer?"

Topper barked a laugh. "Dude, you're embarrassing yourself."

Rafe didn't even flinch. His eyes didn't leave her.

"She's drunk."

Kelce shrugged. "So is everyone. She's just dancing."

"She doesn't dance."

"She does now," Topper said, nodding towards her, who was laughing and spinning in the sand with a red Solo cup in hand, her hair wild around her shoulders.

A guy — some random local - twirled her by the wrist. She let him.

Rafe's jaw clenched.

Kelce nudged Topper. "Ten bucks says he loses his mind in the next five minutes."

Rafe didn't hear them. His drink was forgotten. So was the music.

She stumbled a little and reached out instinctively- her hand landing on Rafe's arm like a magnet that always found its match.

"Rafey!" she squealed, her eyes lighting up like he'd been gone for months, not watching her the entire time. "Why are you all the way over here?"

"Why are you drunk?" he countered flatly.

She rolled her eyes and threw both arms around his neck. "Because it's summer, Rafe. And you're no fun."

He didn't hug her back at first. Then he did - slowly, possessively, his hand sliding low on her back. She didn't notice. She never noticed.

"Don't call me that," he muttered, even as she leaned her face against his shoulder.

"But it's cute." She looked up at him, her pretty, green eyes shimmering. "You look mad. Are you mad?"

He didn't answer.

Behind them, the guy she'd been dancing with approached again, hesitating.

"Hey, you good?" the guy asked, not even looking at Rafe. Big mistake.

Rafe stepped forward. "She's fine."

The guy looked confused. "I was just—"

"She doesn't need anything from you," Rafe snapped.

Leah blinked between them. "Rafe, stop. You're being weird."

"I'm not." His tone was dead calm, but his fingers twitched.

The guy raised both hands and backed away. She sighed, pushing her hair back. "You scare people sometimes, you know that?"

"Good," he muttered. "Keeps the wrong ones away."

She didn't hear the way he said it. Not really.

Instead, she smiled - that blinding, dizzy smile - and hooked her pinky around his. "Come on. I'm bored."

He let her drag him toward the fire, her hand warm in his.

And he thought, You'll never know what you do to me.

Not yet.

But you will.

[fexarii]

Before I hit the hay and leave to the concrete jungle, I have to post these devious queer lists (like tier list but for the el gee bee tee) I made on VC . I'm tormenting my friend with look outside rn and it will become your problem too, dear reader!

Yes I will explain all of these just uhh scroll down ig

Rustle rustle grabs my papers . Ahem .

Okay I'm following the first tier list's order (besides Sam, he goes first) while I try to remember my reasons at like midnight rn so bear with me here.

Sam is an any pronouns bisexual because he is the self insert protagonist. It would be weird for him to be anything else for that reason alone. Don't tell me I'm wrong for this one or any of these for that matter I WILL kill you IRL with MY ARMY OF SQUIRRELS

Okay anyway Lyle is a cis gay man because at least the mlm part is canon. He doesn't strike me as someone particularly curious about his gender he just rlly wants sam's dick I mean lips. Yeah.

Hellen is a cis but butch lesbian ! She has lesbian energy I think she and Sam can be Yuri if you squint really hard. I have a reason as to why she's cis but you'll have to go through my 7 woke opinions to hear why.

Leigh is also a lesbian because hi Hellen x Leigh nation I see you. Also she/they/it is a diabolical pronoun line up, don't think I've ever met someone with those pronouns who doesn't bite people irl. She would bite your lips off if you tried to kiss her so like don't do that okay? Okay.

SHE'S CUT OFF IN BOTH IMAGES BUT THAT'S BERYL. TRANSFEMME LESBIAN BECAUSE OF A FUNNY MEME I SAW ABOUT TOP SURGERY OKAY THAT'S THE ONLY REASON BACK OFF

SAME GOES FOR FREDERIC EXCEPT ITS THE LINE "DEPENDING ON THE TIME OF DAY THE FRENCH GO EITHER WAY" I had to make sure that aligned properly with my dope as hell animatic (I'M WORKING ON IT). Also he's kinda transition goal so he gets to be transmasc tralalalala

Aster I imagined using Tumblr . Like the way he talks reminds me of Tumblr users, as a Tumblr user using Tumblr rn. Why does that matter? Idk bro but have you ever met a cishet person here? Yeah that's what I thought.

Okay Dan was like the second one I did. He gave me the energy of my former high school cishet classmates that would grab each other's asses but claim that they were just friends like okay bro whatever you say ig

With Jeanne I had the idea of her having been in a situationship with a biker back in the 90s and it just left her kinda confused, I think she has bigger things to worry about atm

AURELIUS' TWINK TIER HAS CONTEXT BUT I FORGOT WHAG IT WAS I think I made like a joke that the way he talks reminded me of TikTok femboys and my friend pinned the message in our chat and yeah so he got his own special tier, gj Aurelius!

Papineau was hard but my friend convinced me of them being enby cuz of the whole janitor thing so congrats you've been promoted to he/they. Also aroace cuz dawg's too occupied with cleaning to worry about relationships

Roach and Morton are both bugs and I don't think bugs really conform to our standards of love and gender plus they're too busy trying to not get eaten by rat baby rn

Xaria and Monty swapped genders back in highschool and one time I saw someone say that they're qpr together and god that's so true to me, thanks kind stranger for your wisdom

Ernest is a transition goal so same thing as Frederic, to the transmasc tier with you. Additionally! I think he doesn't really worry too much about finding love again because he has this whole muse thing going on. He liked this lady once, she's probably dead now and he sings songs about missing her. See my vision,,, (I love Ernest so much I might be his only fan)

Sybil doesn't remember jackshit but she's straight and she's transfemme, not that that matters much considering she's like all slopped now but good for her (in my head she once looked like elendira from the trigun manga,,)

I used cute moth philippe here but I was referring to the evil fungus. The evil fungus belongs into the derogatory tier because fuck you

Jasper... Let it go bro... That's the only reason he's in derogatory and also I don't think he's trans, he would watch conspiracy theory shorts

Oh yeah then the kids. Kids can be gay! I was very bi when I was younger . But ranking them in the sexuality list felt kinda weird so I just didn't do it. Rat baby got put into xeno tier because it doesn't have any gendered pronouns, does it even have a gender, is it even aware full stop?

Okay that's all I got, this post is so long. It's late so if I missed anyone chew me up in the tags idm . If u disagree lmk as well cuz I'm very much a multi-hc person and I am very agreeable. Though I'm always right so like heh I'm not expecting THAT to happen... (I hope you can tell that this shit is so unsrs)

Gn look outside nation... Sincerely, Benny mcSluggins

[corviiids]

sparknotes for my souyo fic 'going on and on and on'

happy year of the souyo in 2025. it's souyo year everyone! (as always don't read the post if you haven't read the fic it won't make sense)

i feel like this is even less of a sparknotes and more of a stream of consciousness than usual but whatever. it's word vomit about interalised homophobia now

first of all the timeline, which fucked with me initially because p4 came out in 2008 and in my head i was like oh, it's set in 2008. it's NOT. it's set in 2011-2. anyway, i did some hurried bad math about it. basically yu and yosuke are a year or so post-college and are roughly 23-24 years old in this fic. nanako is 14-15. the title comes from signs of love because after i outlined the fic i checked out the lyrics to the song and was like hey. i think i just wrote that.

He said, "I'm the one who's got to leave", I said "Nobody's really got to leave 'cause I don't hear enough explanation All I need is admiration" Big frustration, bro, he goes "Life is short, we gave a shot But didn't work, honey, 'cause we had A whole lot going on and on and on"

so this idea of a post-canon souyo has been plaguing me for about a month, then i got sick and at the peak of the sick i rewatched p4a in its entirety so that was that. i think yosuke with internalised homophobia is rightfully a cornerstone of p4 fandom but lately ive been yearning for a quieter and slightly more insidious form, beyond the old standby of 'yosuke overcomes his visible bigotry, one of them confesses, and the relationship starts'. i was like, what if yosuke IS over his bigotry insofar as it applies to other people, and yu's already confessed, and that's still not enough for the relationship to start because yosuke hasn't overcome the mental block it's created for himself without his knowledge? it's harder to overcome that, because yosuke's not aware that he has any qualms left about liking guys, so he doesn't even notice he's in denial. but yu notices, and it hurts him. and go from there.

i really like yosuke a lot. i think he's the most nuanced take on the best friend character out of 3/4/5 even though i obviously have a lot of love for ryuji as well as junpei - it's not necessarily that yosuke is a better or more complex character, but that he plays more with the trope. it's sort of novel because as well as being the fun and fresh bestie (with baggage!) he is also kind of the brains of the outfit and incredibly shrewd, which is rare for the best friend trope. also, all the best friend types are insensitive at times by way of being happy-go-lucky and sort of indelicate, but yosuke also says fucked up insensitive shit in a more blase and less clumsy way, at least as compared to characters who are openly crass - it reads less as rudeness from being unthinking and more as the consequence of an undercurrent of unconscious social biases, which again is more subtle and insidious. pair that with the fact that he's a legitimately reliable, kind, and clever guy, and that makes him a really fun character to write because he never says the obvious thing. pair HIM with yu, arguably the most good-natured and patient of the three protags, and you get a super fun dynamic with the potential for a lot of heartbreak. i know im not saying anything everyone doesnt already know because souyo has been around since the stone age, but listen. souyo is one of those things that's so obviously good and popular it becomes underrated again. it's like shakespeare. yeah souyo is like shakespeare i stand by that. justice and goodness demands that every now and then you sit down and re-realise how good souyo really is.

anyway! that led me to think about, like... if yu confessed before yosuke was ready, yosuke wouldn't shun him but definitely would make it extremely obvious that this was something he wasn't ready to confront. and those socially learned biases would come out in a way that yosuke means totally innocently and even kindly, but which would nevertheless hurt as much or even more as if yosuke had openly shunned yu. the events in my head are that yu confesses to yosuke a couple of years into living together and yosuke promptly compartmentalises that shit and refuses to reflect on it any further and represses anything relevant to thinking more deeply about it. yu, my best friend, is into me. [that's something i can't think about too much.] when i waved him off, he accepted it, so it can't be that serious. [yu is the type of person to shutter his own feelings away instead of bringing them up if he thinks he won't be well-received or might upset someone else, because he's an independent person who cares about others and fears being alone, which means i can't trust him to tell me honestly if he's upset.] i'm safe to assume this is behind us and move on. [i won't think about this again unless it's brought up again. i know yu won't bring it up again.]

"... Back in second year uni—yeah, he told me he was, I dunno, interested, or whatever. I told him I'd never thought about him like that. He said that was okay. And I guess I just—I mean, I never thought about it again.” Rise considers this. “That’s kinda a weird thing to never think about again,” she says. “Your best friend confesses his love to you and you’re just like, OKAY! Really?” When she says it like that, it is kind of weird.

the comment attached to this section in the working doc: "yosuke: am i really a chill guy or is it repression"

in the fic yu mentions he kissed yosuke at least once while drunk. yu being drunk means yosuke has a perfectly good excuse to dismiss that event as a one-off and ignore it too. this is brought up in like one sentence in the fic and neither character addresses it directly or goes back to it to discuss it, and that was very important to me. i think in a lot of pining fic the focus is on the knowledge of whether or not feelings are requited. once it's clear that both parties have feelings for each other, or even that one party has feelings for the other, the major roadblock is cleared and they're able to pursue a relationship, which is why in a lot of 'getting together' fics the climactic event is, understandably, the confession! in reality things can be a lot more complicated than that :( yosuke doesn't know how he feels about yu, but is aware he feels strongly. but yu confessing and even kissing him or doing other things that make his feelings undeniable isn't enough to overcome the difficulty that yosuke is facing internally - it's not enough to make him sit down and go, yu has feelings for me, so should i think about how i feel about him?

on that note, another thing i really wanted to avoid is the idea that yu just moves out because yosuke doesn't reciprocate:

"... And if you really never felt that way about me… if we were only ever going to be friends, I would’ve been fine with that. But if you refuse to face yourself, it’s different. It hurt too much. ..." -- "... You don't want to be ready. You don’t want to confront this about yourself, the idea that you might feel that way about a guy. You want to keep living this way forever, just having fun and hiding away. And I just—I can't do it anymore, okay, Yosuke? I can't keep helping you hide. I can't keep sleeping in the next room, making you breakfast, helping you pretend away the fact that I—” He stops and sighs. “If I'm wrong, and you never felt the same, then I'm wrong. I can live with that. I just need to know you're not running away. I can't keep being your accomplice in that.”

yu's pain doesn't come from his feelings being unrequited, it's that yosuke doesn't respect himself or yu enough to be honest with himself. if yosuke had done his reflection and come to the genuine conclusion that he either doesn't like guys or does but doesn't feel that way about yu, then yu would have accepted that. in another universe i would've written a fic about genuine unrequited love where yosuke just does not feel that way about yu and yu is okay with it because he loves yosuke as his best friend and partner and would be completely fine living with him as his roommate and standing by him as his friend, content to spend time together. the only reason i can't write this fic is just because i personally think yosuke DOES reciprocate... lol. anyway as naoto brings up:

“No… Well, not really,” says Yosuke. “I mean, I guess it does, but it's not him, exactly. I just don't know how to react to this. It's a lot of pressure, you know? Him saying he's serious about me, and that he can't live with me unless I feel the same, or whatever. It's kind of too much. I know Yu likes guys, but I never even thought about that sort of thing, so it's… kind of a blindside.” Naoto seems to pick his next words carefully. “I don't believe it was ever Yu’s intention to present you with an ultimatum,” he says. “I can't imagine he would want to make your friendship contingent on reciprocating his feelings. It's none of my business, but I would encourage you to reevaluate his meaning.”

this maybe feels like a fine distinction, but it's really important for me to make!! yu's never going to hold his friendship hostage because yosuke doesn't reciprocate. this fic has almost nothing to do with how yosuke feels about yu and everything to do with how honest yosuke is with himself, and how THAT affects yu. yu is aware that every moment he spends with yosuke in this state is more time that he's enabling yosuke not to be honest with his own feelings, which forces yu not only to live in a hurtful lie but to be actively complicit in doing so. this is p4 after all! the entire theme is facing yourself and the strength of heart required to face oneself being made manifest. yu endures it for like five years and then eventually realises he can't do it anymore, either from a values perspective or from a self-care perspective. this distinction matters so much to me because of course it's a ship fic and romance tends to be at the heart of ship fic, but yosuke's romantic feelings for yu really aren't at the heart of this conflict at all. i don't want the message to be that yosuke has fixed himself via being gay for his partner. rather, his love for yu in whatever form, and the idea that yu represents the truth for him, forced yosuke to accept the truth about himself and finally enables him and yu to live in an honest way.

ok let's like briefly talk about the other ships and characters. sorry to yukiko who got almost no screentime it just happened that way.

this fic kinda has... every ship?? in it?? which was sort of intentional. i was really trying to push hard with that 'small town' thing of everyone knowing everyone, because this was what yosuke ended up using as his shield against what he was actually avoiding. he thinks it's just that inaba's world is too small and that he doesn't want to be like his friends just dating within their circles, but as yu points out, it's really not a problem to date within your friend group if that's what's working for you. i wanted yosuke to have this easy excuse to start with before eventually realising his problem isn't inaba and the solution isn't tokyo - the problem is inaba when yu isn't there, because it lost its appeal once yu left, and the solution is only tokyo when yu is with him, because tokyo loses its shine when yu leaves there too. the point is that yosuke is looking in completely the wrong direction for what's actually making him happy. his problem wasn't inaba at all, and there's nothing wrong with dating your best friend. ok i said i was gonna talk about other characters but it's yosuke again. let's talk about other characters. my point was that it's kind of a 'and they all lived happily ever after' stereotype to pair all the main characters off, but that was a Literary Decision. ok it was a Choice. i Meant to do that. probably

chie and yukiko to me are just an obvious pair. i actually initially thought about dating yukiko when i did my first p4 run but after doing her dungeon i abandoned that idea entirely because her and chie go through an entire romance arc in about four seconds flat. i dont need to sell anyone on those two. ive always had a real soft spot for kanji and naoto, but i also really like naoto and rise together, so i thought, this would be a fun way to complicate things even further for yosuke by instead of just pairing them off having them all be involved with each other in this web of casual relationships. i didn't tag any of the other ships because to be frank it's just not really about them since yosuke's mostly just focused on himself, so there's not a lot of detail in the fic about what's going on there, so here's like... a chart... btw seven months pass from the beginning of the fic until the end. at the three month mark chie and kanji go to visit yosuke. ok we go

at the start of the fic kanji and naoto are in an on-again-off-again situationship. when kanji visits yosuke at the three-month mark they're still in this state. sometime between this and the point where yosuke visits inaba, kanji and naoto settle and solidify, so by the end of the fic they are in a serious committed relationship.

naoto is bigender because all detective princes are bigender. yosuke didn't ask her pronouns but they're he/she interchangeably. she can be referred to as kanji (and rise)'s boyfriend or girlfriend but usually prefers partner. the others sometimes fumble around with this so sometimes (most often with chie and yosuke) he will just be referred to as kanji and rise's... (confusion) naoto???

rise and naoto get involved while kanji and naoto are still figuring their shit out and aren't exclusive. they are strictly casual and are not looking to be in a long-term relationship.

kanji and naoto are technically open but neither of them is seeing anyone else except for naoto seeing rise. kanji is okay with this but as naoto says in the fic he is still getting used to it. naoto and rise are prepared to end their involvement if at any point kanji decides he's not okay with it anymore. kanji is a little insecure because he isn't sure how much naoto really likes him, but once he realises how serious naoto actually is about him, he will settle down and i think he'll be fine.

rise is not interested in a long-term committed relationship right now at all. she is exceptionally chill about the interconnected relationships and is jealous of nobody. after yu and yosuke get together she and yu will shake hands and go back to being normal friends.

she gets involved with yu after yu moves back to inaba. they refer to each other as boyfriend and girlfriend but it's not that serious. yu is earnestly trying to move on from yosuke (hasn't yet) but is not attempting to do so with rise, they are just having fun. (rise calls herself yu's rebound but this is a joke)

chie and yukiko are each other's girlfriends but might come out of their holiday as fiancees. unclear

teddie is single

so that's the soap opera part of all this

i was personally really fond of the naoto and rise scenes in this, i just liked writing them a lot. naoto really suffers from being the last character added to the party and so just doesn't get the same amount of time to develop her relationship with the group or with any individual party members, which is such a shame, because she is SUCH a fun character. she and yosuke are really interesting because i would argue that (maybe outside of yu) they're the smartest characters in the party and until naoto joins the group it's yosuke filling the niche of the detective, so it's sort of a shame that they never really get to bond. this section also has one of my favourite lines in the fic which i keep expecting someone to call me out on

Whoa. Naoto’s getting more than him? Pint-sized, gender-ambiguous, awkward turtle Naoto Shirogane?

remember when everyone was saying awkward turtle? i just wanted to be true to this being a game from 2008.

anyway, there are two bits of advice to come out of the naoto and rise sections that i thought were most important to yosuke's development in this fic:

Naoto leans forward. “Yosuke,” he says gently. “I know we don't know each other particularly well, but for my part, I’ve always considered you a good friend. Would you accept a bit of well-intentioned advice?” He waits for Yosuke to jerk his head. “It's not a failure of self to admit that you want something. Just remember that, okay?”

and

Yosuke furrows his brow. “You realise it sucks, right?” he asks her. “It sucks people keep talking to me like they know me better than I know me.” Rise shrugs. “Isn’t that what friends are?” she says. “S’not like not knowing yourself makes you a dummy. That’s life. We haven’t got the TV anymore, so you gotta have friends you can count on to… to switch on the Yosuke show and spot your Shadow self when you can’t see it. Persona!”

the latter to me is about the mortifying ordeal of being known or whatever. it's about being vulnerable to others in a way you yourself aren't aware of and accepting that that isn't a bad thing all the time. i kinda want to offer yosuke some grace here as well - as irritatingly oblivious as he is, it IS kind of disconcerting and upsetting to be constantly told things about yourself like everyone thinks they know better, and it can be really uncomfortable to have a relationship with a friend reframed by finding out they feel a way about you that you weren't aware of. the stuff he has to overcome in this fic is more complex than just 'accept he likes guys' - there's a lot of introspection and acceptance required in looking inward and finding out you don't know yourself as well as you thought you did, especially if there's external pressure.

"hey rook, why didn't anybody kiss in this fic?" i personally really enjoy making you read twelve thousand words of pre-relationship and not rewarding you at all. that's the reason.

when i was first outlining the fic, i got to the confrontation that yu and yosuke have at samegawa and thought, okay, this is the part of yosuke's social link where yosuke (atlus?) fumbles his shit hard, because that entire rank reads as leading towards a love confession until yosuke is like "YOU HAVE TO PUNCH ME IN THE FACE."

so in my head i was like, this fic COULD be a fix-it for that. it could be. a different man would end the fic there and have yosuke realise his shit after yu chews him out, and it resolves by yosuke going "this time im going to ask him to kiss me instead of punch me" and then it resolves with a kiss and they live happily ever after. obviously i couldn't do that. it had to be a lot messier than that because of who i am as a person. so i dragged the outline on for another 1.5k or something after that point and the fic itself runs for another 6k.

LIKE THIS POST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I THOUGHT I WOULDN'T HAVE THAT MUCH TO SAY AND THEN IT JUST GOES ON AND ON AND ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[ccaelynn]

bf kirishima!

aaaah! first time actually posting something i write on here! usually, my writings stay in my notes app because i'm too scared to put them out into the world, but here i go!

-> SFW, small hcs about eiji as ur man! wc: 519

bf kirishima! who is the absolute sweetest man ever. he is the epitome of a gentleman, and prides himself on how he treats you.

bf kirishima! who loves spending quality time with you. hanging out together, taking walks, coffee dates, or even walking around the mall while he carries your tons of bags for you. he enjoys it all.

bf kirishima! who always listens to what you have to say, and thinks everything that comes out of your mouth is the most important thing ever.

bf kirishima! who likes making playlists for the two of you to listen to in the car, or even just lounging around with him. not every song is the best one in the world, or your taste, but he put lots of effort into it, and so you listen with him anyway.

bf kirishima! who likes leaving little kisses all over your face, putting his weight on you, and smothering you with his lips, claiming he, "hasn't appreciated you enough," and that you "need affection" even though he has been with you all day and kissed, hugged, and touched you countless times in the past few hours.

bf kirishima! whos favorite thing to do is nap with you, snuggled up on your chest, arms around your waist, while you run your fingers through his hair, scratching the nape of his neck like he's always loved.

bf kirishima! who is your ultimate hype man! going out? he's complimenting you millions of times. at the gym with him? he's encouraging you while you're right next to him. asked him to take pictures for you? he's spewing all sorts of loving words from behind the camera, and he makes sure to keep the 'live photo' option on so you hear them when you play it back.

bf kirishima! that learns to cook or bake your favorite foods, and makes it one of his past times. he texts you randomly, telling you he has a surprise for you, then shows up at your door with a tin of your favorite dessert. it's not always wonderful, but he tries! (and he'll take your pointers to make it better next time..)

bf kirishima! who always mumbles about how much he loves you when he's sleepy. as he lays on your shoulder, softly dozing off, he never fails to ramble in a soft tone about how you make him feel, and how he wants to be the best man for you, because that's what good boyfriends do.

bf kirishima! who is so manly, he confides in you when he's not feeling the greatest about himself. he lets you kiss him better, wiping his slightly damp cheeks, and pouting at his glossy eyes before you tell him everything you love about him, how strong and amazing he is, and to never doubt himself because he is the best version of himself he ever could be.

bf kirishima! who is just the literal best. bf kirishima! who vows to never treat you wrong, and to love you forever and ever. bf kirishima! who is the best thing you could ever wish for. <3

a/n: there it is! my first official work! aahhhhhh!!! i hope u all enjoyed, thank u for reading! also, please do not hesitate to leave me notes of constructive criticism, or tell me what you liked or didn't like! i am always looking to become a better writer! finally, here is a cookie if u made it this far: 🍪

xoxo, cae.

[tonguetyd]

Good morning!!!!! Happy Arcadia day!!! Under the cut is a direct copy of all my notes I jotted as I was doing my first listen (with annotations after the fact). All typos are unedited

EIA

LTW: video game music? DRIFT MENTION! (Oh just wait babygirl) The way he says eclipse is so satisfying. STRINGS!!! Eclipse AND twilight mention? Darya will love this. FIRAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!! Oh the second he whispered we were in for it. FUCK YEAH! God ii is such a good drummer. OH! Trap switch up! Live by the fire and die by the sword nice. GOSPEL. I USED TO KNOW MYSELF. Oh vee…AND THEN ENDING SCREAMS oh his screams are so GNARRRRRLY fuck YEAH

Emergence: she’s still that bitch. I’ve had emergence in my head all day. Vibing. MIIIIIIISSSSSSS GAAAAABBBIIIIIIIIII

Past self: hip shaking so sad ass lyrics! Oh I love it. The falsetto. Oh this. It’s DYWTYLM updated and I love it. He says shit which isn’t as good as a “fuck!” but I love it anyway

Dangerous: god his voice. MORE TRAP BEATS AND WOOS! Chord progression switch nice. OH JE SAID THE THING!!!!

Caramel: slut dropping to the saddest fuckingg song in existence brb

EIA: music box!!! SHEET MUSIC!!!!!! I knew it! Gods sharpening blades lime ooooof yes. Said the thing! This is an analysis lyric song. FILL ORCH OOH!!! Said the other thing!!!! PKAY VICALS!!! That string feature is BEAUTIFUL JAW DROPPED WOE (literally just stared into space looking so dumb but so happy, we LOVE a string feature)

Provider: gospel! The way he’s rhyming these words are hitting. ….ph I’m blushing. I love the sexy songs I’m so ready to read the at first glance loving lyrics and then Realize after. Oof. That’s a GOOOOOD song

Damo: our lil sword guy ❤️ I still hear play discord and games on repeat, boy just wants to play amongus with his boys :::( oh vee count 2 just bc it’s this song also this after provider where he says I wanna be your provider and be this Rick (rock) for you right into nobody knows that I’ve got a problem. The culture of masculinity is rough :/

Geths: immediate thought “have I heard this before??” So that’s weird. oh ves :( WOA!!! This guitar tone hits. Weird Cali vibes. I WAS IN LOVE WITH THE THOUGHT OAUFH. Oh VEE!!!! Whiplashy song but I’m on the ride. A crowd cheering oh that’s us….oh that’s us….maybe it didn’t come with a gun but you deserve one. CALL BACK TO CARAMEL MELODY? A little???

IB: unsettling start ok. Ok piano hello. Car crash imagery, OCEAN IMAGERY. (I GOT THREE LOOKS!!!) ..oh it’s a suicide song. Oh. That. That was not. Mmm. Finally here but I’m not leaving this time. Like. Hopeful suicide??? Idk infinity baths washing over me with the car crash ocean just made me get that impression. But it’s also hopeful. So. Idk. Halfway thru! MORE SCREAAAAMMIIIIING YEAAAAAAAA!! Stank face fr. OOOOOH BREAJDOEN OKAY!!!!! FUCK yeah! Ok admittedly this post breakdown chugging does go on for a little bit but nice. LOVE AN 8 MINUTE SONG THATS 4 MINUTES INSTRUMENTAL!!! Sick af album ending too on a rough metally fade out. And that’s it!!! (Post yaps: what is happening in the bridge that people are yelling about? Teeth of god ohhhh interest-h…HEY….HEY WAIT THAT….THATS ME!!! VESSEL WHAT THE FUCK)

[sunsetno4]

Pokemon AU Tag Game

Thank you @fallenheroreblog for this tag! :D This is a lot of fun to think of, mainly because Vendetta being the most subpar trainer in the world, lol. This so got away from me. First tho, the rules.

How to Play: 1. Make a Pokémon trainer AU for a character of your choice 2. Make a Pokémon team of six or less for said character 3. Add a blurb about your choices 4. Tag your friends and followers 5. Have fun

I'm gonna tag @darkfire1177 @thecryptidenthusiast @glitterdustcyclops @payloadofgeckos (if y'all want to, I'm not sure who likes pokemon around here, no pressure!) and anyone else interested. :D <3 Tag me please! I wanna see what people come up with~ Ok! Let's go!

Vendetta Frey is basically just a contest trainer, no battles for nem or nir team. They'd all suck at it and not have fun with it, which is the important thing. Ven just wants them all to be happy and fulfilled. Nir empathy is alive and well, and probably more intense (but only for pokemon, people can go fuck off).

Perish Song, aka Perish (Hattrem) // Vendetta's first pokemon. Ne still has telepathy and was basically kidnapped by some of those weird world-dominating groups, you know, as it happens. Ven doesn't know the whys, or doesn't remember a lot of nir time there was a blur, mainly because of Perish. They got paired together and Vendetta has to assume it for for a reason. But it was just awful. Ne feels too much and too intensely, which caused Perish a lot of pain. She'd lash out, which upset nem more and caused her more pain in return, and it was the world's worst feedback loop :'l When Vendetta finally escaped though, ne couldn't leave Perish behind. She didn't deserve that.

Their relationship was extremely rough in the beginning, and even now, it's more trauma-bonded neutrality. Ven wonders if finding Perish a quiet and nice home would be better, but Perish is scared to leave the only person she really knows. The world is terrifying and loud and it hurts, but she knows Ven does try to keep it as quiet as possible. :c Perish doesn't do any contests. They prefer hanging back and hearing the nonsense after the fact, lol, but she's good friends with Wherewithal. She likes their silly antics and plays (secretly, can't let people know that, nope!).

Relish (Trapinch) // Ven stumbled over Relish shortly after escaping, who was severely hurt at the time. One heal ball later, and Relish was all good and very attached to Ven …who didn't think that through, at all, Perish was already a handful at the time! Thankfully, the trapinch is a very chill soul (gentle nature, all the way!). He's actually the reason Ven got into doing contests too. Relish loved watching them on the tellie, and loved to reinact the different routines. Ven asked if he wanted to try himself and Relish! Geeked! So hard! :D

…except Relish has terrible terrible stage fright. He normally doesn't make it on the stage before digging his way back to Vendetta. But! Sometimes! He does make it out under the bright stage lights and… then, digs his way under the stage and back to Vendetta. His record is about fifteen seconds being on stage, and Ven is So Proud!!! He keeps trying his best and it's lovely and Ven is so encouraging. Relish is also the main reason the team is more often than not broke as fuck. All that stage damage… Ven still says it's worth it. Anything for Relish. :'l <3

Wherewithal (Audino) // Wherewithal has the Klutz ability, and it's why they and Vendetta met. Their old trainer was an impatient asshole and often screamed at Wherewithal when they failed at battles, and especially when they dropped items. It was a bad time. Ven saw one of these times, and would've dropkicked the trainer in the face if Perish didn't beat nem to it. TOO LOUD! ୧(๑•̀ᗝ•́)૭!!!!!!!

The trainer all but abandoned Wherewithal on the spot after that, and Ven offered them a safe place to stay and they're still here, lol. Wherewithal is kind-of the team therapist. They help Ven regulate nir emotions more with their feelers, and Perish too. They both need a lot of help… :'l They are a very silly pokemon too, often using their feelers to make a little monocles and mustaches to try and get giggles out of the others. They're just a fancy busymen~ No battles, their anxiety is still too high but sometimes they like to join contests when they're on the smaller side. And they're actually pretty good! :D

Fuffle (Pyukumuku) & Kerr (Kecleon) // They're a bonded pair of pokemon that Vendetta stumbled over while visiting a coastal resort town, while they were pulling cons~ Fuffle enjoys pulling in a crowd due of their shiny nature, and then violently puking up their innards and playing dead. While the group (understandably) stands horrified and sometimes crying, Kerr comes in from behind while invisible and steals all the shiny things she can find. They often make out like bandits (and Kerr sometimes will grab Fuffle and pretend like its corpse it floating around to scare people further, for fun).

Unfortunately, telepathy beats invisibility so Vendetta knew it was happening. Fortunately, ne found it funny as hell and offered them some protection as a trainer. The pair didn't agree at first, but were quickly won over. They still pull cons, sometimes at the contest venues, sometimes during the contests themselves. Kerr often has more money on her than Ven nemself too. It's the team's main source of money, since they rarely place in any contest.

Demure (Clobbopus) // The last team member to join, and no one entirely knows how that happened. One day, Demure was just there and never left~ She is an very curious and very enthusiastic Clobbopus that absolutely loves contests!! Along with Relish, she's normally joins all the contests she can and she loves the spotlight as much it loves her. However, as the contest goes on, her enthusiasm often …let's say it overflows. :') She doesn't fight the other contestants, but bopping them in aggressive hugs and the like is very frequent and she's never really finished a contest fully because of it.

But Demure has fun anyways, and loves all the last place pity ribbons she and Relish get, lol! And the sweets!! :D She's probably the biggest Poffin fiend out of them all and loves getting sweets post-contest. Honestly, even if she finished and placed higher, Demure would probably be disappointed in the prizes. Where's the treats???

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But, yeah, lol. Ven's team is ...not good but they have a lot of heart. And silliness. And kleptomania. And rage! But Ven is deeply fond of them all. They're all nir family now, and they make Ven feel safe again~

As for the art, I honestly just wanted to see Ven in Pokemon style, so I used May's trainer art as a base/edit/whatever you have. ^^;;;!!!! And then, I got so lost in the sauce making nir outfit. The hoodie has FOUR variants! Six if you included the shiny ones. :')!!!!!!! Gengar and Dracovish ones are better imo, but Shiny Breloom, my love~ But! It was a lot of fun, so again. Thank you for the tag, fallenheroreblog! It was very fun, and I have a new love for Hattrem and Kecleon now, lol!

[otakusheep15]

Twisted Wonderland x Heathers

This one is the one I was personally very excited for! Heathers was my favorite musical growing up, and it was the show that made me a theater kid.

As always, this is less of an actual AU and more of who I'd cast if NRC did a production.

Veronica Sawyer: Riddle Rosehearts

I debated on this a little bit, but I can't think of anyone else who could fit this role better. He's sarcastic and witty, but also a bit niave about how the world works, much like Veronica. I think he'd be good at playing Veronica as her mental state deteriorates, and I lowkey think it'd be funny to watch him freak out over hearing "Dead Girl Walking" for the first time. He would kill it of course, but it would take him a while to be fully comfortable with it. I also think his dynamic with other characters in-game suits Veronica and her dynamics surprisngly well.

Jason J.D. Dean: Floyd Leech

This is mostly just me feeding the FloRid fans. I don't ship them myself, but I understand and I see the vision. As for him as J.D., I think it makes sense. J.D. goes through a lot of emotions throughout the show, and I think Floyd would be good at portraying them. He has an amazing voice and I know he would kill all of the songs. Plus, he's manic and insane, and I just know he would do so well in this role.

Heather Chandler: Vil Schoenheit

This was a no-brainer. He's a diva, he's an icon, and he's a legend. I love the idea of him haunting Riddle during the show, and he would look so good in her death robe. Of course, he has a stunning voice that suits Chandler's songs as well. Chandler is undoubtedly the star of the show and he would soak in every ounce of spotlight possible. It's not the biggest role in the show and she mostly stands around after she dies, but I know Vil could pull it off better than anyone.

Heather McNamara: Cater Diamond

I NEED Cater singing "Lifeboat" in my life immediately. He fits the preppy, slightly air-headed character who's actually deeply depressed and anxious perfectly. If anyone could understand her character, I think it would be Cater. Plus, his dynamics with both Riddle and Vil fit the role as well I think. He admires Vil a lot and has a tendency to suck up to him, which is something McNamara does with Chandler. In a similar way, Riddle and Cater have a surprisingly close friendship, much like McNamara and Veronica do by the end of the show.

Heather Duke: Azul Ashengrotto

I have had this thought stuck in my brain for months and I can finally get it out. Azul would make such a good Duke, especially if they do the West End version where she gets her solo song. Azul would play her so well, especially once Chandler dies and Duke reveals her true nature. As an angstier note, he has a lot of the same insecurties that Duke has, especially the body image issues. I think he could tap into that aspect of the role well.

Martha Dunnstock: Kalim Al-Asim

This just makes sense in my brain. He's sweet and kind, and I can see him and Riddle having a sweet dynamic. I don't fully buy into him having a crush on a jock like Ram, but I think he could pull it off. Also, the thought of Kalim singing "Kindergarden Boyfriend" would legitimately put me into a coma. I also think that, like Martha, Kalim is a lot sadder than people think he is, but they both hide it behind optimism and whimsey.

Ram Sweeney/Kurt Kelly: Ace Trappola/Deuce Spade

I decided to put these two together because they can honestly be interchangable. If I had to designate specific roles, Ace would be Ram and Deuce would be Kurt. I think they would play off of each other well and I could see them being super over the top. I specifically want them to sing "Blue" because I don't think they'd enjoy singing "You're Welcome" very much. I also think they'd be hilarious during "Big Fun" and their death scenes.

Bill Sweeney/Big Bud Dean/Coach Ripper: Ashton Vargas

He fits these roles so well and it has be absolutely rolling. Him singing "Dead Gay Son" would be so iconic. Him as J.D.'s dad would be iconic. Even him as the coach would be iconic. Vargas was built for these roles. I rest my case.

Paul Kelly/Mr. Sawyer/Principal Gowan: Divus Crewel

HEAR ME OUT PLEASE. Does he fit any of these roles? No. Would he particularly enjoy playing any of these roles? No. Would he be absolutely insane during "Dead Gay Son"? Absolutely. Plus, I'm also hear to spread my Crewel x Vargas agenda.

Mrs. Sawyer/Pauline Fleming: Lilia Vanrouge

My favorite thing is putting Lilia in the silly teacher roles. He would absolutely kill "Shine a Light" like no one else could. Lilia has the zany, slightly off-putting vibe Fleming has, and he could play into that well. I know he would go absolutely crazy with this role and just amp everything up to 110%.

[cryinggirlnamedhelen]

Can I have 🤔romantic Idol! Fem reader with character : sakura, suo and kaji

(Just thinking about ai Hoshino suddenly)

YAYAYAYAYA! man oshi no ko was so good before the whole ruby and aqua situation😔

sakura haruka

- he's not really that much of a music person. he understands the concept, and he can enjoy it from time to time, but he doesn't constantly have music blasting in his eardrums 24/7 (cough cough kaji)

- buuuut more often than not, whenever he opens a music app on his phone or even any sort of streaming service, he always catches himself placing your name into the search bar

- you were once playing on his phone, accidentally opened the music app on his phone, and realized that he was following you and played all of your songs a few times. you're never going to let that go

- he's always at all of your concerts, no matter what events he's skipping. a lot of idols tend to dye their hair different colors or wear contacts for their eyes, so not a lot of people stare at sakura at your concerts, which he's thankful for

suo hayato

- like sakura, he isn't the type to constantly listen to music all the time every day. but he does like music, especially instrumental music. he also likes music in foreign languages, mostly chinese

- he has an instrumental cover of one of your songs as his ringtone. but since he doesn't touch his phone in front of other people (canon in the volume 1 omake), whenever he's around other people and his phone is ringing in his pocket, they have to listen to the entire instrumental song

- if you make a really fast and energetic pop song, he won't not listen to it or anything, but he'll certianly listen to it way less. but suo loves your calmer, most sweetly romantic songs. the type that he can enjoy at any time of the day.

- he also goes to all of your concerts, with vip seat after vip seat and always visiting you backstage. you try to keep your personal life as private as possible, so your fans are always making theories on who he is. the leading theory is that he's your boyfriend, which is true

kaji ren

- oh brother. we all know that this guy had headphones over his ears 24/7, constantly blaring music into his ears. his poor eardrums will probably break by age 30 at this rate. and not only that, in the anime, when kusumi takes off kaji's headphones, we can hear that he's listening to blaring rock music

- so yes, he knows every single one of your songs by heart and is constantly listening to them. whenever he does blind karaoke--that enomoto drags him to--the moment he hears even the beginning beat of one of your songs, he recognizes it instantly

- a lot of the furin boys, especially the first years, thought that you were his celebrity crush for the longest time. and they weren't necessarily wrong, but they weren't right either. when you came to visit kaji one day, they were all in shock.

- it's a bit creepy, but despite how quiet you keep your personal life, every fan of yours can recognize kaji and can clearly tell that he's your boyfriend. the paparazzi are to blame. of course they are. a lot of crazy old men who are fans try to pick a fight with kaji, but once, a clip of kaji mario jumping and kicking a crazy fanboy straight in the nose went viral, and no assault attempts were made on kaji ever again

[the-impulse-to-love]

EVEN IN FUCKING ARCADIA. (THOUGHTS)

OH. MY. GOD. words cannot properly express what an experience thsi album is. anyways, go my ramblings. um heads up theyre very. raw. from what i usually try to post LMFAO

MY IMMEDIATE THOUGHTS ON A FEW RELISTENS ON ALL THE SONGS!!

1. look to windward

ACTUALLY SUCH A GOOD OPENER. HOLY FUCK. THE WAY THE STRINGS BUILD?? AND THE CHORUS?? IT GOT ME SO HYPED

SLEEP TOKEN AND STRINGS NAME A BETTER COMBO!! more general but i LOVE the way we got more orchestral stuff this album

also i like the um. whatever the fuck instrument is at the start

"halt this eclipse in me" IS SOOSOSO INTERESTING... MOON IMAGERY... TMBTE.... YOU KNOW..............

THE VOICES?? THE AMBIENCE?? WHAT R THEY SAYING

AND THE TRAP BEAT. BWUHHHH SO GOOD

THE SWORD NOISE THE SWORD NOISE IM SOSOS HAPPY THEY PUT MORE SFX AND WHATNOT ON THE ALBUM

THE BIBLICAL IMAGERY DURING THE RAP???? OHHHHHH

"the fate of the fallen, nobody knows where I came from / even I have forgotten / how can I already lose my way like this?" LIKE DAMN OKAY?

the "oh and i used to know myself" REAAALLYYY REMINDS ME OF AQUA REGIA. like the way he sings it with the "oh and iiii am done dancing to alarm bells"

will you guys halt the eclipse??

i lowkey. thought he was saying haunt at first but halt is cool too ig

THE BREAKDOWNNNNNN SOSOOSSOSOSOSO GOOODDDDDD AND THE SCREAMS?? WE GOT SCREAMS ON AN OPENERRRRR

2. emergence

uhh. idk if i have to comment much on this one bc i. already did.

anyways still a banger track but

i do think other songs are becoming my favorites over it

love you gabi rose saxophone solo tho

3. past self

oddly. not as sad as we expected imo LMFAO. reminds me of caramel with the dance-y beat but sad lyrics.

i feel like this is another one more so directed at the fans w the "Apologising for shit that frankly I stopped thinking of years ago"

also the um "Torn apart by the true believers are turned out to be faithless." is SUCH A GOOD LINE. something something if you're a real fan you'd respect boundaries (LIKE. NOT. USING THEIR REAL NAMES...)

new swear word UNLOCKED. i lowkey didnt hear it first time i listened

"If this is real, then I am all up in a frenzy (Hmm-hmm-hmm) / Not like before when I was empty" -> SAY THAT YOU WILL MENTIONED ("you've got me up in a frenzy again"). also the next line being "say that the story we tell is never ending" sounds similar to "say that you will" yk...

4. dangerous

FUCKING. BANGER I LOVE THE BEAT?? like it feels like a warning it fits so well god

knew it was gonna be good from the guitar at the start

"You've got me talking in my sleep / As if you're conquering my dreams / You have awakened what's beneath" three sleep references in the same verse?? woah

I DONT KNOW HOW TO DESCRIBE IT BUT. THAT ONE BEAT THAT ONE BEAT ITS SO CATCHY ITS SO GOOD ITS SO DANCY. i jsut feel like that one dancing kid gif

"Well, I thought I could resist you / But something in me just can't help but insist / To blur thе lines just one last time so" vessel nooo....... don't do it..... no........

the bit at 3:06 kinda sounds like that one part of tmbte

HE SAID THE THING. HE SAID THE THING HE SAID SHOW ME HOW TO DANCE FOREVER AND HE DID IT BEAUTIFULLY.

i do vaguely remember when that was first teased ppl going like "oh i wonder if hes finally met someone good that can show him how to dance forever..." So. Maybe not

5. caramel

i think. there's been enough said about this song already

still a banger tho. love you caramel

6. EVEN IN FUCKING ARCADIA

PEAK PEAK PEAK PEAK PEAK MY FAVORITE SONG ON THE ALBUM ACTUALLY OH MY GOD I GET CHILSL EVERY TIME

I WAS. LOOPING THAT ONE BIT OF THE EMERGENCE B SIDE/THE TEASED MUSIC SHEET MUSIC WHICH IS. THIS SONGS INSTRUMENTAL

I GOT JUMPSCARED BY THE VOCALS AT THE START BC IM USED TO THE INSTRUMENTAL

BUT I LOVED THE MELODY AND I WAS LIKE OKAY I KNOW THIS IS GONNA BE REALLY FUCKIGN GOOD

AND ITS. SOMEHOW STILL AMNAGED TO BLOW MY EXPECTATIONS OUT OF THE WATER

IT RMEINDS ME OF FALL FOR ME IN A GOOD WAY

"Turns out the gods we thought were dyin' were just sharpening their blades" GOES CRAZY WHAT DOES THIS MEAN

"HAVE YOU BEEN WAITING LONG FOR ME??" THE SMILE I LET OUT. HE SAID THE THING

THE SWORD NOISEEEEEEEE AND THE BOW FIRING (?) NOISE

ITS SO NICE TO HEAR THE INSTRUMENTAL IN GOOD QUALITY DHMU

"WHAT GOOD IS ALL THIS TALK OF WINGS WHEN THERE IS NOTHING LEFT ABOVE?" AOOOAWUFUHA WWAFHAWGJSGIU24GY3TR7F8EU9GIDO

IF YOU DONT ASCEND AT 2:30 WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU

I ACTUALLY TRANSCENDED INTO A DIFFERENT PLANE. MY JAW FELL TO THE FUCKING FLOOR. OH MY GOD.

"IT SEEMS EVEN IN ARCADIA YOU WALK BESIDE ME STILL." HE SAID THE THING HE SAID THE THING and then followed it up w the "have you been waiting long for me?"

THE SCREAM. THE SCREAM THE SCREAM.

theres not even that much heavy bits but oh my god i genuinly love these sleep token songs

THE CELLO. I WAS LIKE OH MY GOD THAT WAS GOOD. AND THEN THE CELLO. FLOORED ME. SENT ME TO HEAVEN. SNET ME TO SPACE. STRINGED INSTRUMENTS ON SLEEP TOKEN TRACKS I HAVENT HEARD OF YOU SINCE WTBB I MISSED YOU. ACTUALLY SO BEAUTIFUL I ALMOST STARTED TEARING UP (i dont usually do that w songs)

THE AMBIENCE AT THE ENDDD REMINDS ME OF THE AMBIENCE IN TMBTE BUT LIKE. A BIT MORE DISTORTEDDD CUZ LIKEEEE EVEN INARCADIA I AM THERE AAAAAAAAA

AAAAAND IMMEDIATELY ADDED TO S+ TIER

7. provider

close enough welcome back sugar (content wise) idk

THE BEATTTT OUUUGGH

"my lover..." damn

THE LYRIC FLOW IS CRAZY IN THIS ONE

THE ICU LINE TO "I SEE YOU" TICKELD BRAIN GOOD.

"The only good girl in this side of the moon" AHSDHHAWHJFSSEFHSJGK -> "oh maybe make a good girl bad"

"You’re the only game that I like to lose" -> blood sport? ("i made loving you a blood sport i cant win / so lets play")

i did. not hear foxtrot at first im. was this intentional. or are my ears just shit... it sounded like fuck [straight] to me and i had to do a double take

breakdown... ouughg...

"garner you in silk like a spider..." MOTHS.... AS PREY TO SPIDERS?TMBTE REF? like i dont think. being wrapped in silk from a spider is a good thing guys

"even in the daylight, i can give you what i want" is such an INTERESTING CONTRAST from all the moon imagery yk. and the whole "so give me the night" + "the night comes down like heaven" + "the night belongs to you"

what if. sleep pov...

8. damocles

Yeah.

side note but i keep. playing this song and i genuinely think it makes me feel sad so i should. probably not do that as much but its so good :::(

9. gethsemane

Holy. Shit.

The noises at the start??

THE WAY THE NOTES SOUND ALMOST DISTORTED??

listen i know sleep token songs fundamentally are personal. but this is. another level

"you are my harlequin bride, i was your undercover lover" harlequin.... harlequin mentioned....

"you never saw me naked / you never even touched me / except when you were wasted" Jesus. Christ. (Pun not intended)

"but you were trying your best / and that's what i tell the others" auaugfjghdhhhdhfhggcvjjkcbvkcbvcll

"I was tryin' my best, and that's the thing I tell the mirror / I was in love with the thought that we were in love with each other" YEEEEEOOOOOOOWCCCCHHHHHHHHHH. stabbed.

the idea of. self blame in this track is just so. guhh. and trying to excuse the other persons actions even if they hurt you.

THE BREAKDOWN FOR THIS IS SO. GOOD. reminds me of high water with how raw it is

THE SCREAMS TOOOOOO

LIKE. THE CROWD AMBIENCE? I THINK THATS WHAT IT IS?

and then the transition into the latter part of the song is so SMOOTH.

really digging the beats.

also the outro. smooth as FUCK

"I've learned to live beside it, and even though it's over now / I will always be reminded (Reminded, reminded, reminded)" OHHHHHHHH.

other thoughts that relate to past projects but. wont speak on em here

10. infinite baths

Wow

the way it has a similar start to windward....

"infinite baths washing over me at last" reminds me of like. the sort of cleansing he was asking for in atlantic ("flood me like atlantic / bandage up the trenches") so. tpwbyt reverse theory?

"Well, I have fought so long to be here / I am never going back" :::)

sort of a rain/euclid vibe. more so euclid, it has that Hopeful vibe to it

the whole nature being changed metaphor auugughg....

THE WATER AMBIENCE. UGUDFJHKGSFDFDJKHU9POEJSHFJXKL;

the "let me drift" bit kinda reminds me of the tmbte "i dream in phosphorescence"

II WENT CRAZY. I MEAN HE DID THE WHOLE ALBUM BUT LIKE. WOAOOWAOAAW

THE SCREAMS. DUDEEE THE SCREAMS. idk how people made out hte lyrics but thanks

the "halt this eclipse in me" line reprise1!!!! LETS GOOO

"Teeth of God / Blood of man / I will be / What I am" TEETH OF GOD MENTION IN A SONG. WE ACTUALLY WON SO HARD

THE FADEOUT. MOSH PITS R GOING CRAZY W THIS ONE

the fadeout also reminds me of the offering but like. way longer

II... II DUDE.................

and the way it loops perfectly into windward

OK MISC CLOSING THOUGHTS

PEAK FUCKING PEAK BEAUTIFUL ALBUM SOBBING WEEPING CRYING THROWING UP SCREAMING

i wonder whats gonna be on the setlists.

reverse tpwbyt theory. maybe

um i need to. think about feathered host n house veridian more and pattwrns and stuff yeah

[hyper-alice]

I don’t think this is the first time someone has mentioned this TGWDLM production here but I want to because it’s my favourite production aside from the og

sound quality isn’t the BEST since it’s a bit hard to hear the actors when they’re facing away but other than that it’s fine

I’d suggest just watching it but I want to rant about it so here’s some of my favourite bits (spoiler alert it’s like the whole thing)

The guy who plays Jeff’s characters absolutely KILLED it, encapsulated his energy so well

The girl who plays Mariah’s characters is a very good singer even if it’s a bit hard to hear her at times

Pete has a little propeller hat and it takes me out every time I see it

Jeff’s coffee shop guy (Barry Swift I guess?) is some sort of influencer or something, he tipped Emma and then went all the way to the other side of the stage to record her singing, he returned again during Cup Of Roasted Coffee

I love the music that plays for the news broadcasts, Clivesdales’ is hilarious

Homeless man was peak during LDDDD, he did the voice and the hand movements and everything

He also jumped over Paul at one point

And he ended the number by jumping into Paul’s arms

The person playing Corey’s LDDDD character kept shoving Paul when they were doing that clapping part

Physical comedy during What Do You Want Paul? was great, the chair with wheels and Paul getting dragged across the stage was an excellent addition

Throughout act 1 Bill would cling onto the closest person to him whenever the infected were around

Show Me Your Hands in general was amazing if you don’t watch the whole musical I highly suggest watching this bit because I can’t even explain the absolute chaos

Paul, Emma, Bill, Ted, and Charlotte were constantly trying and failing to get away the entire song

Instead of Ted saying “My ID’s in my back pocket” Bill says “I have a daughter”

At one point Bill jumps on Ted’s back and starts clawing at Doug like a cat

Paul’s actor trips on the trash cans at the end of the song, I don’t think that was intentional but it happened

Sam’s hat didn’t come off when Ted hit him with the trashcan lid so Ted just quickly takes hit hat off

Charlotte was so aggressive when she was worried about Sam’s brains, she was pointing the gun around at people until Emma started talking to her

While Paul and Emma are talking after the “kick your head” argument, Bill goes up to Ted and they talk until Join Us And Die

During this bit, Bill also fixed Ted’s tie

When Charlotte and Sam came back Bill immediately jumped onto Ted

Charlotte did the Wicked riff after Join Us And Die

During the “why does it hurt to love you” part of Not Your Seed, Alice and Bill stood face to face, it hurt

McNamara’s watch was bright red

Before Show Stoppin Number, Hidgens would get really close to Emma’s face and yell every time he said her name

He was absolutely unhinged during that monologue

Ted wasn’t even scared at first he was just annoyed

He also didn’t start actually enjoying the song in any capacity until Workin Boys

They kept most of the Workin Boys choreo the same

Jeff’s Workin Boy grabbed Emma instead of Paul, the only reason Ted got the gun was because Paul threw it at him for some reason lmao

Said gun proceeded to be taken by McNamara and given to a random PEIP member

In the Starlight Theatre, all of the infected emerged from behind the meteor to confront Paul

I mentioned this earlier but the Clivesdale News intro fucking killed me the first time I heard it

They kept the bit where Emma stays in character for the bows, they also forcefully had her bow with them as she was screaming

[hwanwooyoung]

[250130] Gayo Daejejeon :: pocket locket (cover) :: Yuna

[gods-favorite-autistic]

Track list for Fig and the Cig Figs independently published Junior Year album (officially named “Infaethable”)

Teenage Rebellion

Night Yorb (a heavy metal banger)

Summer Scaries

Devils Nectar

Time Quangle (a love song about Ayda)

Multiclass (Gorgug sings on this!)

The Ballad Of Lucy Frostblade (Kristen was the one who convinced Fig to write this)

So Late, So Tactical

Do You Have A Fucking Warrant

Cassandra (Can You Hear Me)

Hall Of Mirrors

President Applebees (written entirely in the night after Kristen gets elected by a drunk Fig with extremely drunk notes by Kristen)

Raging For Love (inspired by Gorgug, of course)

The Elven Oracle (Has A Day Job) (So Stop Bothering Her)

Maximum Legend

Fury Of The Ball

Cursed

Infaethable

The Bad Kids

[a-whole-lot-of-things]

i love dead boy detectives to death, and hope with all my being that we can Somehow pull off getting it back (through netflix or otherwise)

but honestly if we cant? if we get stuck at where we are now forever? i honestly think ill miss the potential s2 soundtrack the most

[seaofreverie]

Watched some clips and live videos and stuff from the 2022 tour this weekend... It was so awesome

[androgynouspenguinexpert]

Golden feathers touch the ground

He tears his hair, 'Who made this mess?'